You know it is not here

EvergreenLast updated: 7 december 2025tags: nature, anxiety, community

I think I’ve come to a conclusion. The internet is not a place for a person like me. It is not where I fit in. However much I bend and break myself and my thoughts to fit on the screen I cannot. It is not where I belong. A person cannot go on trying to live a good life if all they do is complain on the internet that their life is not good. If you ever got so lost that you are reading this, you know what you need to do. You know that life is not here. It is not worth all those hours. Not even when all you talk about is the real world. You know it is not here.
I cannot go on trying to talk about nature here, if I never do anything real myself. Yet I do not want to give my life away for the good of the planet. Yet I do think half of me would. But if half of me did, I would know that there is no use in being here. There is no use in talking into the void. Into the zeros and ones. It is not here the world is. You do not need to preach about the struggles of the world on the internet if you never struggle trying to fix them yourself. What’s the point in complaining about the trash on the beach and “can’t people pick up after themselves?” if you never even dare to pick up that piece of trash and throw it away yourself. Do you not see, how strange we are? How much we rely on people on the other side of the planet to fix our problems, who in turn are relying on you to fix theirs? Are we all not longing for a life?
Go meet people. Go talk to them, and have fun. Make meaningful connections and lose them all the same. Walk a little further than you’re used to, so that you can see the moss. It’s okay to be scared. It’s human. But for gods sake let not your fear consume you so that it is all you are, let not the fear consume you so that you cannot live. You know where the world is. You know it is not here.